found out a truth today.
a truth i knew all along.
but was distorted along the way.
with his facades and escapades.


i blame my practicality.
i blame my insensitivity.
i blame my stereotyped.
and now i tear my barrier apart.


still doesnt mean what he chose to do was right.
i know what it means to want to protect.
i understand what it must take.
to shun from all the pain the world has to inflict.
and the easiest escape is to run to a masquerade.
but please choose not to hide this vulnerability.
i, too, am still conquering, still overcoming.
thats how we deal with it.


i have learnt something.
and i wont be sentenced with a second offence.
because i know what He did.
and why He did it.


such a heart
that will lead you to deceiving
all the pain held in your
hands are shaking cold.

perfection at 9:53 AM